I feel that we are not as close than before. Still the four but I'm not included inside. Hah! I thought we can have a good friendship until the days we died. but now seem it wont happen,obviously. Perhaps,the gaps between you all and I are so big. There's not even a stop point. I can't see you all. Not i was too quiet these days,is i realised we did not have the same topic to say. Yours topic wasn't include me inside,so i had to stayed quiet of course. I was waiting you all to realised my existence,not just me to do so alone to try to adapt what you all said. Yes it was liked before. I was ignored! So?? I was not a clown,you all straight forget me during the usual days. It's useless to force yourself to be friend with me,maybe. So what I could do is stayed quiet there. Lonely.
P.s I am not hurting or mean harm or something bad,i am just saying out my feeling.
