迷茫

我不是故意，让自己变得不再像自己。
我不是故意，让自己变得那么可怕。
我更加不是故意，把自己搞得不像人样。

原因？
不知道。。
可能。。
或许。。

可怕的是，我连最基本的原因都说不出来。
有人告诉我说，听说我最近变了，变得不再热情，在外人眼中好像都有心事。
我的第一个`反应：“没有啦，我今天不舒服。”
回想起来，我是因为否认而否认。我，心虚了。。

彷徨，无助
失望，失落
寂寞，感慨
烦恼，忧愁

渐渐地，笑容减少。
但，撑起了一丝的微笑。
伪装，穿上保护色。
至少不会那么伤。
伤的只是心灵的最深处，
别人看不到，只有我感觉得到。

我只想静静地，默默地，
躲在某个角落，
静静地，默默地，
思考人生的方向。
我不想连目标也没有，不想连自己也输了。。

可怕的我，迷茫，懵懵懂懂地往外头闯，
 风吹过，轻轻掠过我的脸庞，
为这反复无常的心情画上句点。

2012=)

2012,a nice year but is it doomsday is approaching?? Errr....Let's wait!
Okay,have to say sorry again for a very very long times no update my blog. It becomes dusty here,right?I think so. 2012, it is not an easy year. The pile of homeworks had become most of my life. Awwww... how pityful are us as a teenegers. It do really spoils all the teenage dreams. How sad am I!=( Homework! Away from me please =) And bring back my freedom,entertain and all the things you grabbed. Seriously I'm going to kill you
      My life=busy,busy,still BUSY! Aikzz..*sigh. Exam is coming and it is just five more days to go. And I'm here update my blog. Hah! Too tension?Maybe. Chemistry may is the killing paper to me. I hate you!Nononono. Hold on. I should love it as someone say if you want to get good result,firstly you have to love the subject. Okay. I say again. I LOVE you chemistry! LOL
     My life now is not same anymore with previous year. How will I say it? I think many people know the reason. Shhhhh...XDD What I want to say is I will appreciate my life now and make it become better. But i will never ignore you all,my dearest friend.
    It's time for me to end my post. Bye and good luck to all the candidate. ALL THE BEST:)

Sweet sixteen

Officially Form 4 now. Sixteen=). By the way,this is not a honeymoon year although many of them think it is. SIxteen??It's an undefined number. I'm growing up and up but not taller. Hahahahaha..i did not enjoy well in my Form 3 holiday. Awww..it's annoying. Fine..I gain much of experience in this holiday too! Everyone had changed a lot after this holiday. Me too?? Let my readers to tell me the answer. Hopefully it's good quality. Don't know why my emotion in this few days just like a roller coaster,sometimes I feel like to smile. But sometimes I feel I'm EMOing. Is that one of the charactheristics of growing up? I need some times to balance my mind. 

Thanks for helping me today. Don't treat me so good. I don't know what I should do for you. Brrrr..no more next time!!THANKIEWWWW is what I want to say but I have no chance. And really sorry if I hadn't done perfectly in those days. 

My sister,i don't know how to relieve you as maybe I don't have enough mature thinking like you. But what I can say to you is I will support any decison you do. And please don't cry silently. Let me share your feeling. You are not alone. I will accompany you on the following days. I trust I believe everything will be fine. So,I please you,if u meet any problem tell me yar =)


For you, my dearest sister =)

For you,secret =)

Apologize OR Pretending

Apologize or pretending? Hah ! Seriously i don't know. Okay. Start my story here. It's an annoying story. Because you won't know what am I saying. Funny?! Hah! It isn't!!! Have to say sorry because maybe I can't control my emotion well and simply scold something that make you all uncomfortable. I dun wanna to scold you all badly because I know i shouldn't do like that. But you all have drive me crazy. You all are out of control. And my emotion is also out of control too. Too bad it is !! I don't know whether I should apologize or continue pretending. But it is fact and i cant change it anymore. I scold you all today. How hurt is it. I never scold people who are not my family. But I did it this morning. Regretting??!! Not really. Have a bad mood now!! YOU ALL DRIVE ME CRAZY.. Arghhh!!

Holiday VS Busy Life

Have a one and half month vacation now! But it seem to be filling up with busy life. Hah! I wonder is it holiday?!
I'm sorry to my readers for a long time did not update my post. The reason is obviously here--busy!! Hahaha.
The simplest and the most busy holiday here. It is really annoying. My friends,how do u think? XDD

These days,many of them said i'm always EMO. Did i? I'm just don't feel like to smile and to talk like anyone else. But don't ask me why. I don't know what's the reason too! Aquarius charactheristics .Hah!  Arrr.. Ignore that part. I'm okay my friend. Don't judge me with my face and expression. I'm really FINE!!

Lastly. It's a beautiful night and I still blogging here. Woww.. 1240pm now!! Oopss..Holiday wat. So,enjoy a little la. Just a pretty little.=)

Will see you all soon. Take care!

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~by annjoe =)

11.11.11

11.11.11 A meaningful day. I went out with my beloved friends
11.11.11 A wonderful day. I enjoyed with You Are The Apple Of My Eye
11.11.11 An awkward day. I end the day with an awkward feeling.
11.11.11 A special day. The day changed my life. And it's special.
11.11.11 An unusual day. Wish I could have a new life with better..
12.11.11 A new day=)

Goodbye 11.11.11
Good Luck 11.11.11

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By Annjoe
12.11.11 1.11

I'm back with appreciation

I'm back after preparing backwoods camp. Well,it's finally over. And I think is not bad for us to gain experience and friends. First, I have to say thanks to this backwoods comp. I have learnt much of experiences through the camp although I am busy enough.
Thanks DAD and MUM
Really appreciate to you all of trying your best to help me. And sorry if it is quite annoying. Aiyaa,will treat you all eat something good later. Teeheee.
Next,thanks all my friends
I admit,maybe I'm not a good leader. I can't against so much of pressure. But it's okay. At least I have you all those who always motivate me,support and encourage me. Thanks to you all sincerely. THANK YOU !!
A special person who I have to thanks really.
Thanks mei xuan,who stay at my house one day before backwoods and help me till wee hours. We just have a sleep at 4am,and we get only one and three quarter hours sleep. Damn cool!!  Ahahaha. Thank you. Will treat you eat la. Don't keep mentioning it.

Lastly,sorry if I had done anything wrong. I'm sorry I hadn't done with perfectly

To someone____Hmm,have to say sorry to you. I'm a little bit moody that day. Really sorry if there's annoying. But I think you will forgive me, right? Ahahhaa. But I'm really sorry,i couldn't tell you what is happening on me. And thanks for always tell me to update my blog. I'm a little bit lazy though. 

To you. I'm letting go. I'm tired.indeed.=).


Smile =)
Stay tuned. By Annjoe.